Exhausting Day!

So I was thinking today, through the chaos of work, and I was thinking about being comfortable in my own skin. What does that mean anyway? Does it mean that I have to be happy with myself all the time? Cuz that just flat out doesn't happen. On certain days I don't like my hair, other days I dislike my clothes, and most of the time I wonder why everything changes as we get older. On those same days I sit there and thank god for my health, I am happy that I have legs and arms that work, and thank God for the abillity to have control over my body, my senses and thoughts. Yet is it still ok to dislike parts of yourself? How do you go through 29 years of people telling you that perfection is your only option and then in less than 3 months have someone tell you that perfection doesn't exist? Have I been lied to or has my bar been set so high that it is literally unatainable? Where is the solid middle ground?

Well here is where I sit right now. I think that I should be able to have a few bad hair days a month, especially when the hair is a tad shorter than I like it to be. I believe that getting up an hour early to walk/jog is truly helping my health and making me happier during the day. I don't want to be super model skinny, but I would like to fit into my clothes that are just a tad too small. This all seems normal and regular to me...but like I said I have no clue what "normal" is.

God has been brought into my life to show me the light in the darkness of my life. I have been merely walking around and going through the motions of life. No more! I know the word of God and my life has been transformed. I know that I am in a state of confusion right now, but it isn't anything God can't get me through. I have faith and it will not falter. I have a wonderful support group of friends and can't imagine my life without them. They make my life so much better! I keep asking God what is next and he keeps throwing the Prayer of Salvation into my path. So when I am ready that will be my next step.

As for this week...I have blowing bubbles and shopping with Aub, dinner and bible study, Miley's 2nd Birthday, and Game Night! I am so excited for the rest of this week. This is what life is all about!

God Bless! <3<3