Lessons Learned...

Friday night I went out with a friend to a country bar. Usually this bar is a lot of fun but the band sucked and for one of the first times....I didn't drink. I quit drinking and this is one of my first times out without drinking. I kept thinking..."what am I doing here?" I could've been watching a movie or getting some sleep. My friend wanted to go out and I missed hanging out with her, but what I didn't know was that she was going to A-focus on my past and B-make a guy her main focus. SHe was on her phone all night, and so was I but because I haven't even texted a guy in a flirtatous way in FOREVER! Plus I was still holding a conversation with my other friend and we were laughing. We left early and I asked her if she was trying to get involved with the people in her church and in bible studies...she said no but she was trying. The tough part is that I know she is lying. When I was interested in a church, I went straight to the source and was actively trying. I thought I would offer for her to come to my church and now I wonder if that was the right thing to do? I have a lot of things to pray about tonight and oddly I also have to pray to see if I should go on a date....I know weird, but he called it a hang out. Is that a date? Is it weird to want to be formally asked? I know that I am very old fashioned but IDK....I will probably mention something to him and scare him off, but I guess then it wasn't meant to be. Like I said before...IDK.

Back to last night, I realized that I need to keep living out my life in front of my friends. THe old ones especially so they know I am not just blowing smoke. THey didn't believe me that I quit drinking....kinda sucked cuz they laughed at me. It's not that I can't drink at all...I can but I quit partying! There is a huge difference but they cna't distinguish that. I figure that all I can do is live it out and show them how much better my life actually is.

Today I worked very hard, 4 loads of laundry, walked molly, cleaned moms, uploaded windows 7 on my laptop, rearranged my apt, and cleaned my closet. I need to clean the bathroom and kitchen still but my apt is so much roomier! :)

I can't wait until church, lunch and then the Super Bowl tomorrow. It's going to be a good Sunday.

God Bless!

Struggle...

I'm not struggling with faith, I know God will light my path and guide me. I am not struggling with wanting to drink, for I know that it will only get me negative results. I'm struggling with patience and the want to spend time with others. I still want to help people but my patience for listening is dwindling rapidly. I don't know what changed. I am not sure if I am just trying too hard to fit everyone onto my plate or what it is, but I don't like this feeling. I am saying a MAJOR prayer tonight to find out all the answers to my questions. I do know that I need to see less of some people. I love them and care for them but right now I don't have time for all the details that I once did. It seems to be an obsessive conversation over the same thigs. It makes me feel guilty, because I know they haven't changed but I have. This is tough and its def a prayer issue, but the good thing is that it isn't a boy issue.

I haven't come across any major boy issues at all recently. Any men that God has put in my path are amazing and they have so much that I can learn from them. I think that they will be really good people to talk to once I get to a point in my life where I am comfortable in my relationship with God. This way the nerves that I get around guys can be calmed by God and he can help me learn what it is to be true friends with a guy. I don't know how to do that. I want to, but I get extremely nervous and a high level of anxiety. It's weird i know but its what I deal with. The good thing is that I do have a mentor. I am so happy and so honored to have her in my life. Thanks to Alan I can go to her with anything at all and she has such a wonderful answer for me. It doesn't necessarily mean that she tells me the answer, but she tells me what she would do and then I go home to pray about it. Ultimately I think God has a million and a half sticky notes up on his fridge that say Lacey AGAIN! lol But it is a good thing. I am truly trying the whole trust in God with everything you have life. I love it so far. It isnt without problems or slight isssues but it is amazing and good. He will never leave my side nor will he lead me astray.

I thank God for the people that he has led into my life since he planted the seed within me. I thank God for the family that I have received through him, for they are the ones that understand. They are wonderful people and all they see is good. They don't care about my past, but only know that I am taking the proper steps to have a better future. I am slowly beginning to open up to them and speak of the things going on in my life. I dont' have a lot of bad things, but the things I do I pray about. I can't stress enough how much prayer has helped me. Eventhough I am having a particularly tough week, I pray and God brought me some amazing things. He brought conversation from a stranger and the ability to expand a friend circle.

Psalms 18:8-9 "[It is] better to trust in the Lord than to put confidence in man. [It is] better to trust in the Lord than to put confidence in princes." Psalms 112:7 "He shall not be afraid of evil tidings: his heart is fixed, trusting in the Lord."

Not to be Redundant...

So I have had many people ask me how I find the energy to do what I do everyday. How is it that I have such a positive outlook on life lately? Well simply put it's God. I always say, now I'm not going all Godly on you but this is why and how. I am not bible thumping or shoving it down anyones throats. I am not saying that my way of life is the only way either. I am simply stating that this is what worked for me. This is what I needed and was missing in my life.

Now part of what helped was that I created a routine for myself. I wake up early, go walking, make lunch and breakfast, brew the coffee and get ready. Sometimes I even get to sneak in a little bit of The Costby Show or the News. Mostly it is just refreshing to have all my daily goals met. I work, do schoolwork, church (which I am becoming more involved in) and I try to do one on one meetings with my friend Britney. I have another prospect that God wants me to learn from as well, but he is a little shy. So I am being patient. I am not pushing anyone into anything.

The biggest thing I learned was that I needed to turn all my worry over to God. He will listen to my hearts desires, my prayers and he will work it into his plan of lighting my path if that is where it belongs. If it doesn't belong then he will simply let the prayer go unanswered and leave it be. He knows what is best for his children. He knows us from the inside out and he will never fail us. God is always beside us and when we see only one set of footprints, that is when he carried us.

This life that we live cannot be lived on our own. We must seek him in order to gain grace, wisdom and knowledge. He will save us by grace through faith. Our undending faith is what will bring our relationship with God even deeper. He is amazing! Not everyone believes that but it is certianly true. I know many friends who worry a lot and always repeat the same question, "Why me?" I listen to what is wrong in their lives and can't seem to understand why people don't see the obvious. Change comes from within oneself. You can't go on doing the same thing and expecting different results. It just doesn't work out.

My life is good, I am happy and I am meeting my goals early. I pray about anything and everything in my life, and I don't think it's weird either. I like it and I am glad that God has sought me out. He gave me an amazing gift and I wouldn't trade it for the world.

It is now bedtime.! Night everyone and God Bless!

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Ok so I usually don't make two posts in one night, but I just can't believe some of these people out here. There are women that I know that would give anything to meet a man who would be a godly man, one who can provide for his family and who wants children. Then there are women in this world who throw everything away and ruin so many lives....does anyone know why? I can't understand how so many people can be so unhappy  that they would ruin lives. Actually I can believe this. I got to work and received a phone call from a man. He started telling me a story....and that story lasted for 17min. I kept calm and told the customer I would call him back. When I got off the phone I heard so much more from about this story. I was appaled and as i called him back to tell him that someone else would take care of this situation he proceeded to tell me that he had some demands. I couldn't belive my ears and for the first time in my life at this job i was scared. I had no idea that anyone would say this. The worst part.....he said that he was a god fearing man and so was his girlfriend. It shows me that people will say just about anything to get what they want. Well now there is a man searching for his infant son because the mother of his child took off with him. They aren't aware if she killed him or if she gave him away. It baffles me to think that someone doesn't want to take care of a child. If that is the case why not give it to family? Why not drop the kid off at the hospital? Why do you think that you don't have a choice? Fod God sakes, walk into a starbucks and hand your baby to a person if you are that fed up with it. Don't take rash measures and put everyones life in a huge disaray! I just don't understand humanity.

I wish, hope, and pray that this nation gets back onto a naiton based on God and the values of the bible. This nation cann't continue to live welll without God involved. We need God back in schools, on money, and in lives. I think that life needs to get back to basics. Money isn't everything. The onlly thing in life htat you truly need is love and faith in God...the rest will work itself out. Do i know all the answers....NO! But I do know that there is always a way out! I'd rather have 4 babies dropped off at my doorstep than to hear about any of them being killed for not being wanted.

Topics like this just get me to the core. I can't understand and it makes me sick to my stomach. I hope that God's plan is a good one, cuz man is ruining life on earth one day at a time.

When following God...you can still be you!

So I am finally feeling comfortable in my own skin. Took me long enough! I figured out that even though I put all my faith and trust in God, I can still  be me as long as I live a righteous life. I can color my hair anytime I want and as often I want until I get the results that I like. It doesn't matter what anyone else thinks because they don't have to look in the mirror at me everyday! I do! I look at me in the mirror every single day! So what I do to my hair I do for me. I even asked God if I was doing the right thing and he gave me a clear sign of YES!

I remember to pray each and every day! I PRAY ABOUT EVERYTHING!!!!! God allows me to do the things I want to do but only if it is in his itinerary for me and my life. Life is good!

Psalms 1:1-3 "Blessed [is] the man that walketh not in the counsel of the ungodly, nor standeth in the way of sinners, nor sitteth in the seat of the scornful. But his delight [is] in the law of the Lord; and in his law doth he meditate day and night. And he shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that bringeth forth his fruit in his season; his leaf also shall not wither; and whatsoever he doeth shall prosper."

God Bless <3 <3

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What if I told you that if you give your whole heart and soul to one man, he could wash away all the bad things you've done and negative in your life forever? It's completely free of charge and there is nothing that you have to pay! Well that isn't entirely true...you do have to give your time and an open mind. Would you think I was lying? Would you think that I was losing my mind?

Well none of those things are true. If you give your life to Christ and surrender control of your heart and the path your life is taking, you can have a wonderful, rich and righteous life. You only have to do a few things...First of all you must accept Christ as your Lord and Savior and start that personal relationship with God. Romans 4:4-5 "You can't save yourself. There's nothing you can do in terms of deeds to bridge the gap between you and God. You can't earn God's salvation." John 14:6 "You can receive Jesus Christ through faith. Faith is trusting in what Jesus has done for you. Faith also involves repentance, which is to willingly turn away from sin." Next you need to repent and allow God to wash away all your sins. He knows you from the inside out and he will forgive you for any past transgressions you may have. This all takes blind faith. You cannot officially see what you are giving him or accepting from him, but you need to belive with all your heart that God can help you to light a good path  for you and your life. Psalm 110:105 "Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path." The word of the gospel (reading the bible) is your guide and praying. You don't have to earn any of this. You simply must agree that you believe that in blind faith you take God as your savior and trust in him that he will answer your hearts will and your prayers in leading a morally good and godlly life.

None of this comes easily or quickly. Some things will come rather fast, but God has his own plan and timeline for everything and everyone. So just because he doesn't answer, doesn't mean he doesn't care. God gives you the things you need in life, not always the things we want or desire. You must also let go of worldly gods and ideals. If you let God into your heart you should no longer worry about what the world thinks of you. You should worry about being a good person. You should worry about keeping your word to those that you promise it to. You can be independent as long as you understand that nobody can do anything on their own. If that were true, why would anyone get married or actually seek God? Independence is good if you need to pay bills and keep a roof over your head, but don't push people away just because you believe that you can do it all on your own. You need a family to support and pray for you. This doesn't always mean your blood family that you grew up knowing, sometimes this means your church family. My biggest support group is my church family and they are a WONDERFUL bunch of people. I am so blessed that God lead me to such a caring group of people who help to guide me on my journey and seeking a deeper relationship with God.

Now I am not giving anyone a free pass for anything. If this is something that you need in your life then please ask questions. There is so much more to know and find out about accepting God into your life and living a life that is truly lit by him. This will require work on your part and a big life change. But you can't sit back and keep doing the same things and expect different results right? You need to change things and if you ask God to help he will. He will show you a whole new world that you never knew even existed. It's a beautiful world and everything can be healed, not super quickly, but it has the possiblity of being healed and making life wonderful.

John 14:6 Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." Ephesians 2:8 "For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith-and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God." Romans 10:9 "That if you confess with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved." John 3:16 "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life."

Romans 1:17 "And Jesus said unto them ... , "If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to younder place; and it shall remove; and nothing shall be impossible to you."


God Bless <3 <3