Lessons Learned...

Friday night I went out with a friend to a country bar. Usually this bar is a lot of fun but the band sucked and for one of the first times....I didn't drink. I quit drinking and this is one of my first times out without drinking. I kept thinking..."what am I doing here?" I could've been watching a movie or getting some sleep. My friend wanted to go out and I missed hanging out with her, but what I didn't know was that she was going to A-focus on my past and B-make a guy her main focus. SHe was on her phone all night, and so was I but because I haven't even texted a guy in a flirtatous way in FOREVER! Plus I was still holding a conversation with my other friend and we were laughing. We left early and I asked her if she was trying to get involved with the people in her church and in bible studies...she said no but she was trying. The tough part is that I know she is lying. When I was interested in a church, I went straight to the source and was actively trying. I thought I would offer for her to come to my church and now I wonder if that was the right thing to do? I have a lot of things to pray about tonight and oddly I also have to pray to see if I should go on a date....I know weird, but he called it a hang out. Is that a date? Is it weird to want to be formally asked? I know that I am very old fashioned but IDK....I will probably mention something to him and scare him off, but I guess then it wasn't meant to be. Like I said before...IDK.

Back to last night, I realized that I need to keep living out my life in front of my friends. THe old ones especially so they know I am not just blowing smoke. THey didn't believe me that I quit drinking....kinda sucked cuz they laughed at me. It's not that I can't drink at all...I can but I quit partying! There is a huge difference but they cna't distinguish that. I figure that all I can do is live it out and show them how much better my life actually is.

Today I worked very hard, 4 loads of laundry, walked molly, cleaned moms, uploaded windows 7 on my laptop, rearranged my apt, and cleaned my closet. I need to clean the bathroom and kitchen still but my apt is so much roomier! :)

I can't wait until church, lunch and then the Super Bowl tomorrow. It's going to be a good Sunday.

God Bless!